brain overload

It's seems like my mind just will not rest lately. So many things swirling through my brain and I can't really focus on any one thing.

I read another article the other day about how the U.S. is one of the major economies of the world, but has one of the very worst family leave laws. It seems every where but here you can take time off to have a baby, both mother and father and get paid for it. Now, I know that living in CA, you are allowed up to 12 weeks of unpaid leave without losing your job. But really, unless you are a super saver wizard, who has 12 weeks of pay just lying around? I mean 12 weeks off would have really helped us out when I was on bedrest but how could we afford to? I'm mean sure, we could have planned ahead I guess but as most people know it's much easier to say you'll save than actually saving!

Our neighbor across the street amazes me every day. She is one of those ladies who has a pear shaped body and little chicken legs. Very odd combo! And she isn't fit at all.....if you get my drift. Yet she wears little tank tops and strange pants everyday. I can't figure out if the pants are supposed to be capri's or are just too short. Everything is too tight or hanging out and she doesn't seem to mind. Then as I glance out the window the other day there she is wiping the nose of one of her kids with her shirt which is practically pulled all the way over her head in the process! I am just amazed at what goes through or maybe doesn't go through other people's heads sometimes.

The baby has been really fussy around here lately. I took him to the doctor the other day to see if he was sick. He had been crying practically non stop for 2 days and I was very tired. Still am, but I guess that's just part of motherhood. He's fine, just tummy trouble she thinks. Eat less dairy she says to help keep his tummy happier. Of course.......he's not sleeping much either. Only when you hold him does he really seem to sack out.

My house is a totally disaster and in need of a major cleaning but between the three of them and holding the one all the time I'm finding it difficult. I can dust and vacuum and pick up but folding laundry is very tricky and changing a wiggly 2 year old diaper one handed? Forget it!

Tomorrow is free museum day around here. It's a great thing for us. 25 local museums participate including the California State Railroad Museum so we can go visit all day for free! It will be nice to go on a fun family outing finally. Although the baby is supposed to be 6 months before we take him anywhere extremely crowded I'm thinking he should be okay if I keep him covered.

It's tax season again and although I'm eager to get my taxes taken care of I always hate it. It's so sad and disheartening to see how much money they say you made last year. I mean, really, where does it all go? Why does it seem that no matter how hard we try we just never have enough money to do all the things we want? Do we EVER have enough? I mean do we just always up our spending when we make more money? I don't know, I just wish I was better at saving!

I'm contemplating go back to school when the kids are a little older and all in school but I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. There are things I'd like to try but to go to school I would actually need to really pick a career. That scares me, I'm non committal like that!

I'd really like to own my own business, but what it is exactly I'm not sure. I came across a website the other day looking up allergy info and found this company that makes clothing specifically for kids with life threatening allergies. It has a label on the sleeve of the garment reminding you to check the inside tag that carries all the major info like the actual allergy and what to do to treat it in case of emergency. I love the idea but found the selection slightly disappointing. They had one style shirt for the boys-long or short sleeve and only one dress option for girls with 3 different colors for each to choose from. Plus the sizes where only for 2T-4T. Seems to me, more and more kids are in daycare these days thatsmaller sizes would be wanted as well as larger too. If you have a taller kid like I do they can be 4 in age but way too tall for the 4T shirts. I'd love to be able to expand on the idea and start my own kid's speciality store that leaned towards products geared for kids with all kinds of allergies.

I'd really like to find some kind of "job" I could do from home. I would like to have something to do even just an hour or two everyday beyond the normal kids, house, cleaning thing. I'm just not overly creative and imaginative. I can copy stuff (sometimes) but I don't have a lot of original ideas.

I'd really like to learn to knit.

I want to take a vacation (or two) this year and want to figure out how to make it work easily in every aspect.

Just too many things keeping my brain going day and night and I just want to be able to stop for a minute and really concentrate on one particular thing.

I'm excited to start my recipe project and have my very first recipe already. (Thanks Shawn!)

Although I have this tendency to go on and on, perhaps now I can rest better having vocalized my thoughts. So that is all for now, as always......