Barely a foot out....

It has been much too long since I've last blogged and frankly it may be months or even a year before I return again. The last year and a half has been such an unpredictable roller coaster. Every time I think the ride is over I'm thrown for another loop. When I think I see the light at the end of the forest I barely get a toe, let alone a foot, out and am viciously dragged back in. As a result my already chaotic life is even more chaotic and uncontrollable and I'm done for. I can't sleep, I eat too much and I can't write anything that remotely makes sense. I sometimes seriously worry for my family. Will they find me sobbing unendingly one day or will I be laughing hysterically at the wall? Will they have to wipe the drool from my face as I go completely comatose from stress and nerves? Perhaps they will have to forklift me from my house as I've baked and consumed every last stitch of food from the pantry.